Yet another random pst title. I really like Kanye West’s “Runaway”, plus, it reminds me of my boyfriend and not because he’s an asshole. He’s quite the contrary. On the first night we met, he went crazy as soon as the beat dropped for the song and it was hilarious. I dubbed it his theme song.
But enough strolling down memory lane! Or maybe not, since I have to do that to recap my weekend.
On Thursday, the girls and I left for VA. Before we left, I got an e-mail from NYU saying my admissions decision was available. I’ll skip all the details and just tell you straight: I didn’t get in. I was determined not to let it ruin my weekend (though it did ruin my LIFE!) and I can honestly say I had a great time! Brandon and I kind of got into a tiff over an inappropriate conversation I thought he was having with a friend, but we cleared that up fairly quickly. Actually, I realized that I’m a lot more damaged than I thought I was and I have no idea how to fix me. But I don’t want to talk about that just yet.
What I do want to talk about are my life plans. I could really use some advice. Truth is, getting rejected from NYU has really thrown me for a loop, which is crazy because I didn’t even really want to go there to begin with!
I think I’ll continue my points in bullet form, because I can see it getting tres confusing:
–Originally, my plan was to apply to four schools. A small amount to some, but I need to be close to home/work and only a few schools offer my program and part-time at that. So far, I only applied to one school and got rejected. Now I’m reconsidering applying to the rest.
–Yes, I am a bit dejected after the rejection, but I’m thinking, why not hold off on applying until I’m 100% confident in my application? I’d rather wait a few months for a guaranteed “yes” than pay close to $300 just to hear a “no”.
–Maybe I shouldn’t go for the Masters right away and instead, go for a professional certificate. It would really boost my resume and get my foot back in the industry. Only problem is, I’d have to pay for it on my own and we all know I’m sorta, kinda, really broke.
–My plan was to stay at my job until I completed my Masters. Now that I’m putting off school (and I don’t really know for how long), I’m thinking maybe I should look for a new job where I’ll be more happy.
So my options are: (a) apply anyway and see what happens, (b) re-apply 6 mos to one year from now, (c)apply for a professional certificate, (d) just look for another job
Any advice?
No advice, but ask yourself:
Are you second guessing grad school because you received a rejection?
Or
Are you second guessing because you aren’t sure you want to go now and a rejection might give you a way out.
Or
Are there other reasons why you aren’t trusting your decision to apply?
Just listen to what yourself is telling you, don’t second guess it and go with that.